Singing with tears & pleading in the dark.

A little girl at school has been in a terrible car accident. Her family’s car was hit by a semitrailer as they were driving a few weeks ago. Until now I have had no words to write about it. 

Little Lidia is a beautiful girl! Her and her twin brother were in Kindergarten with my eldest son. These three played together almost everyday despite the language differences. Lidia and her brother repeated at the end of the school year by way of enabling them to develop greater fluency in English. My Dear Siah was pretty sad to go on to Year One without them. He is now in Year 4 and they are in Year 3. 

The car accident occurred in the recent holidays. While the family all sustained minor injuries, Lidia has suffered a great amount of brain damage. We’re all shaken. Her family is devastated. Yet through it they have had so much unwavering faith, strength, hope and reliance on God. They have prayed, we have all prayed for Lidia. We have begged God desperately to heal her, to restore her fully, to return her to her family, to us and to school. We hope and pray for a miracle. We ask that the God of life will give life back to this little girl and be glorified. We hope. 

It’s really hard. I have cried so much, begged and pleaded and simply cannot understand why God would not heal her. He can do it. Anytime He likes. Now….or now…He can. I know it. But as days turn into weeks and Lidia shows only the barest signs of life, we wonder, what is God doing? As people pray and talk about God bringing good out of this my heart cries “Where? Where’s the good?” I can’t see it. 

My little Mmoo (7yrs) prayed for Lidia and said, “God we thank you that if Lidia comes back to school we will be happy and we thank you that if Lidia goes to heaven her family will be happy that she is with you. But we thank you because we will be happy if she comes back to school” and I thought…perhaps either way is good. Terribly devastatingly painfully good. And though the darkness closes in I try to sing through the tears…

But it’s hard. He gives and takes away…and it’s so hard when it’s a child.

So still we pray and plead and beg in what feels like a great darkness and I know my heart refuses to believe how serious Lidia’s condition is…maybe it’s hope…She could still be healed. She could. 

I wish it was still Rebecca‘s month of petitionary prayer so I could say, “Pray with us!” I’ll say it anyway and I think I’ll call it ‘missm’s call to desperate impassioned prayer’. Will you join us? 


11 Responses to “Singing with tears & pleading in the dark.”

  1. kim from hiraeth Says:

    Yes, I will pray. For her, for her twin, for her poor, stricken parents, for her classmates and teachers and for you and your boys.

    There is no comfort in these devastating situations apart from a simple trust in the Living God. His ways are past finding out, but they are good and gracious and are working out His perfect will in ways we will never–CAN never understand. There is comfort in His Word.

    2 Cor 1:3Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 5 For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ. 6 Now if we are afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effective for enduring the same sufferings which we also suffer. Or if we are comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. 7 And our hope for you is steadfast, because we know that as you are partakers of the sufferings, so also you will partake of the consolation.

    The consolation of the Lord was bought at an infinite price and abounds through Christ to His people in suffering. May God grant each one who is grieving a glimpse of the One who suffered so that we might have consolation of soul and eternal salvation.

    Love and Prayers,

  2. rebecca Says:

    Oh! It is so hard when it’s a little child. I will pray, too. Otherwise, I have nothing to add to what Kim wrote. God is always good even though we don’t understand.

  3. Ellen Says:

    Oh I am praying with you and those who know and love this little one.

  4. Radagast Says:

    Praying for you all…

  5. Rebecca Says:

    So very, very sad.

  6. kim from hiraeth Says:

    Any updates on how Lidia is progressing?

  7. candyinsierras Says:

    So sorry! My prayers are with you all. May the family rest in God’s sovereignty and comfort of the Holy Spirit in a time of great difficulty.
    I will have my students pray too.

  8. missmellifluous Says:

    Thank you all for your prayers.

    There is no news. She is breathing on her own and her eyes are open but she is unresponsive. I am struggling with a lot of thoughts on the matter. Her family find this reality very hard to deal with. It IS hard. So hard.

    We still pray…expectantly but with a greater, sadder burden.

    I wonder about so many things…


  9. ish Says:

    How’s things? Have you come across Tim Keller’s book, The Reason for God?

  10. missmellifluous Says:

    Hi ish,
    Things are ok. I haven’t heard of the book. What’s it about?

  11. Islandsparrow Says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about this k. I am praying with you.

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